worried

Hey!!! Here I am again.... I've been gone for a while... I wanted to see if this blog truly helped me overcome the nightmares I have during the night.... guess what IT DOES!!!! I hope it'll help relief some of my worries and stress. I wanted to start Yoga, but it takes too much time. I spend an hour to a bit over an hour everyday to go through e-mail, facebook and other stuff. I just don't have time to spare for Yoga.

so I've had a couple nightmares already... I don't quite remember them... I guess it's a good thing or else I'd probably go crazy trying to analyze them. I'm such an over-analyzer.

I've been having this crush on a guy lately, but he's not someone I would normally go for, but for some awkward reason I like him. I think it's prolly cause I don't actually know anyone like him. It's strange though cause I can name so many things that I don't like about him, and only a couple that I do like, but in the end, I still like him. I've tried to convince myself otherwise, but it doesn't seem to work.... I've told my friend several times that I don't like him, but then I always end up liking him again a couple days later. She doesn't trust him though and says that I'm too good for him =D *sigh... maybe it's just cause I'm bored.... who knows. But I've been overanalyzing the situation for the longest time... I want to let it go.... I have to focus on school.

I've been trying to stay on top of my readings, but it's so hard. I'm starting to read novels again. I just finished the Jane Austen book. It's so romantic, but I hate the ending. But then again it's her life and she led such an amazing romance and she truly is IMMORTAL!!!! But she also led such an amazing life and I can totally see where her ideas for her novels come from now =D.

Anyway, I've decided to go to the gym more, but it's next to impossible cause there's just so much to do. I've applied for a couple jobs and I hope that all goes well. There is ONE thing to look forward to. My family and I are going to London, England for the summer (last week of August) it's a bit far away, but we booked it already... so we're going for sure =D I can't wait. England isn't exactly the most historical, romantic, exotic, or breath-taking place to visit, but it still has that sophistocation and high-society feel that I love so much. We're planning to stay in Bloomsbury-Soho.... in some hotel and I finally get to visit my cousins =D I can't wait!!!! We;re going to Edinburgh too... but i've already been it's so amazing there I love the castle =D But the rest of the family has never been cause I went with the school. However, I never thought that my mom would be one to go to Scotland, cause she loves her Chinese food and she's more of a relazed person (she likes to have public transit), but I guess this'll be good.... A CHANGE!!! I'm glad =D

I'm going to continue posting fashion news =D

- s-fashionista