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I'm just your regular everyday girl, born and raised in Toronto =D. Now the fun stuff: I love fashion, beauty, and blogging. This blog is kinda like my diary in that I write a lot of personal stuff like what's happening in my life today. You won't find an celebrity gossip or world news. Hopefully you can relate to the stuff in my entries. I will update a makeup column and a fashion column every now and then.... prolly once a month. I've been collecting makeup ever since I was 15 and I've always had a flare for fashion. My favourite styles being preppy and grunge. For makeup.... I'm a minimalist with a pop of colour on the eyes. Enjoy! =D *kiss kiss*

Saturday, November 29, 2008

A bad ending to a good nite?

I'm so troubled right now.....

I know he's not that type of guy, but exactly how do u tell?
My mom got angry cause i got home late, but it wasn't his fault and i think i was kinda upset in the car.... should i have stayed happy? and faked it? or should i have just done exactly what i did?
I took him away from the rest of the group at dinner.... cause i had to be home or else i would have gotten in more trouble.... i don't know what i should have done....should i have not gone? i don't know i don't know i don't know!

Sometimes my mom gets angry when i get home too late... i think it's cause she's worried, but i'm 20 for crying out loud. As he would put it, 2 decades old lol....
Does it make me dependent on my parents? I don't know.... like some people have had a problem with me having a curfew when they say they don't have a problem with it. I don't know what to believe. Some ppl have taken the curfew and the pressure on my mom to be home at a certain time as too dependent on my parents.... and ended a relationship because of that...

Will he see it as too dependent? Does he not like that I have a curfew? I don't know.... I don't wanna ask.... I don't want it to end.... I don't wanna hear him say "yes, but it's ok...." cause it clearly isn't ok. I don't know what to think...

He's really different and he's amazing and I know I have to communicate with him... perhaps sometimes the fear of hearing what we don't wanna hear prevents us from talking about stuff. He's not like those people.... at least I don't think he is. But everyone has a reason to not like that I have to be home at a certain time... or maybe it's the way I get when I know that my mom is going to get mad.... maybe it's just me.... maybe i need to learn how to not show my feelings? I always thought when you're in a relationship, you should be able to show your emotions to that person and not worry about that changing the way they think about u...but maybe not... maybe there's that fine line that i'm missing.

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