Ready to start fresh...

So it's been nearly two weeks. I think things are getting better. I've started studying again and everything's starting to make sense. The tears have stopped, the pain hasn't, but the worst of it is over... I'm ready to start fresh... ready to mend everything.

I guess it's true when they say time heals everything.. it really does. I guess I have more to thank you for... it was a great time and I learned a lot =D. I guess when the feeling's not mutual, then there's no point... I just wish we could stay friends... but it doesn't seem like you want to. Another lie, but it's ok... I've learned to deal with it. I just wish you could show me that it wasn't, but it just seems that it was... I never hear from you, never see you online... perhaps I was the only reason y u were online... and if I was, I thank you and respect that. A sign would be good though... just so that I don't hold on to a false hope. They say when u love someone, you want them to be happy... and if this is what makes you happy, I'm ready to let it all go. I've put my heart in a vulnerable position for the first time and I guess this is what I get, but I'm glad cause I know what it's like to truly get hurt. It makes everything else, other small betrayals, seem so miniscule. Thanks to you, I've managed to patch up and forgive another friend... now a very very good friend.

The Call - Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye